Getting thru the first year can be difficult. It seems that we are all on an emotional roller coaster of feelings. The closer
the time between the initial shock of death, the more we feel the numbness. Holidays and special events have no meaning. Often
I found I just wanted to be left alone, spending the day with myself.
As time went on, special days and holidays
became easier. Or, I was adjusting. I'm not really sure. However, I had to learn to plan for the holiday or the event.